We get to meet our little one in roughly six weeks....and while I'm excited, I'm so not ready.
I look around my house, and see mess everywhere. If I can't keep up with work, house and Claire, how the heck is another little one going to fit in? I know it will be ok, and that once s/he gets here I won't be able to imagine before, without him. But wow, I'm feeling a bit overwhelmed right now!
On the pregnancy side of things, uneventful pretty much sums it up. My belly is measuring right at 33 weeks, baby's heart rate is always mid 140s to mid 150s, my weight gain is right on track, and my blood pressure seems to have stabilized after it's slight jump a few weeks ago. We have a girl name picked out (no we aren't telling!), but haven't even started on a boy name yet.
I know you aren't supposed to compare, but I can't help comparing this pregnancy to my pregnancy with Claire. So different, and yet, so much the same.
The differences are easy to spot. With Claire, something came up at EVERY ONE of her appointments after about 20 weeks. Ds markers. Poor blood flow through the cord. Heart defect. Failed NST. IUGR. It got to the point where I honestly hated going to her ultrasounds. I would finally feel emotionally ok with whatever the new development was, and then another appointment would get close, and I was a nervous wreck again. I know the doctors were looking out for Claire and her well being, but I felt robbed. Robbed of the 'normal' pregnancy experience, and that was hard. On the positive side, I have an entire album of Claire's ultrasound pictures.
The biggest similarity between these pregnancies is that I just simply love being pregnant. Even though all the complications with Claire, I still loved the experience. I love the early muscle twitch movements of the baby, the first time you can see your stomach shift from the outside, and I even love the almost painful movements now that make me catch my breath at times.
Six weeks left and I'm not quite ready to be un-pregnant. I know I could be saying something very different in a few weeks though!
|These are from our 3D ultrasound at 29 weeks, 6 days.|