Today was one of those days when I've felt a little discouraged. We had a community group meeting this morning (nothing against the group, it's wonderful!), but after talking about IEPs, therapy, medicaid and crappy EI service coordinators, I'm just feeling a bit out of sorts. I just wish I didn't have to deal with the stuff that comes with Ds, or any special need, for that matter.
I don't want to feel like I need to move so that she can have better services. I don't want to have to fight for her to be included in school. I don't want to worry about whether her someday siblings will feel blessed or burdened by her. I don't want to worry about where she'll live,and who will provide for her when I'm gone.
I don't have these days very often, but frankly, I don't like them much. I know I can, and will, handle whatever comes our way, but today, I don't WANT to have to handle it.
It's days like these that make me feel silly for even considering adoption through RR. But then, like this afternoon, I spend time on blogs, FB and babycenter, and I slowly get back into the Ds is no big deal frame of mind. And I know tomorrow will be better, but today, I'm down on Ds.