Wednesday was Claire's first (short) day back at daycare after being sick. I dropped her off after OT and planned on picking her up before the kids laid down for their naps. When I arrived to get her the kids were all outside playing. Everyone was running around having a great time, the teacher was up near the building with a couple of kids, and Claire was sitting in her swing.
Just sitting there, alone.
I really like everyone at Claire's new daycare. They put this swing in just for her, and I was 99% sure that she was being pushed in the swing, then a situation came up that the teacher needed to address, and she stepped away. It happens. I know that. Claire was not in any danger, and was not going to get hurt. She was not upset. She was just sitting there.
But, she looked so little and so alone sitting there. And my heart broke a bit.
The teacher could tell that I was upset when I walked up. She asked what was wrong, and I just shook my head. I needed some time to decide what I wanted to say about the situation.
I know that having Claire contained at times is great. For example, she's sat in the car (with the doors open) for a minute while I hauled grocery bags inside. But I needed to make sure that this wasn't going become a common occurrence.
This morning I pulled this director aside when I dropped Claire off. I explained that driving up and seeing Claire stuck in her swing and ignored was not a good feeling. I asked that if the teacher needed to step away from her that she take a few seconds, if possible, and take her out of the swing. Apparently the teacher guessed that Claire stuck in her swing was what was bothering me. She explained the teacher stepped away because other kids were throwing rocks. I believer her. I know things come up.
But at the same time, I had to say something. I had to make sure Claire was being properly taken care of.
Today I'm reminding myself that I'm not that mom. Even though I feel like it, I'm not super critical or nit-picky I am simply concerned about my daughter. And right now I am her voice.